Jean

Several weeks ago Jean said, “I embrace you, Charles. And I embrace your anger.” I’ve showed my anger 4-5 times in our year and a half relationship. But I’ve come to realize that there is nothing about me that is more distressing to her than the anger. I thought for about a day about what Jean said and how I could best respond – what embracing, loving commitment could I make? Because, make no mistake, that was a heavy commitment statement she made. I said, “I embrace you, Jean, and I embrace (what is most distressing to me).” It wasn’t a bargain statement, no. It was a commitment. I embrace it all. It seems un-dramatic when I write this, but, wow, it’s a heart game-changer.

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In Tennessee, August 2017. Photo taken by David

In the night, she whispered, “Do you want to see the moon?” “Yes.” I opened my eyes and the moon was shining bright through the open temple doors. It was 3:30. I drifted back to sleep, happy, the moon on the backs of my eyelids. She had asked when we were going to sleep if I wanted her to wake me if the moon was up and full.

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To love – to love – to love – to love the love – to love – the love – to love – to love – the love to love – to love – to love – the love… Get on the train – get on the train – this is the train – get on the train – get on the train.